my new year resolution is to be live a little slower
think i had the same resolution as i went into 2025
just seem to get so busy i keep getting myself into courses, extra work, school deadlines deadlines, work and school tasks, etc. ugh.
i've failed miserably at living slower
i want to feel that peaceful, serene quiet of walking around the neighborhood at 2am, but as a general vibe in my life, instead of feeling that CBD lunch hour rush vibe all the time
does that make sense?
maybe i just can't sit still? anyway. next year my resolution will still be to live a little slower.
i will do nothing and everything i want (which can only be done when i'm doing nothing)
for example, i cannot read a book peacefully knowing that i have things to do before a deadline.
i cannot play my games, i cannot build my mecha, nor can i mod my consoles, if something "important" is always looming over my shoulder.
you get it, right??
blank spaces
a concept brought up by a youtuber i discovered recently (Samurai Life of Stay At Home Dad), was about blank spaces and how where he lives now (malaysia) has a lot of blank spaces, compared to where he was from (i'm assuming tokyo)
what he means by blank space is - having rests, silence. the convenience store isn't open 24/7, the town goes to sleep at night. there are no deadlines, no tasks, to think about when you should be relaxing.
existing for existence's sake.
i know they say get busy living or get busy dying.
but living a busy life makes me feel like i'm dying.
was this what buddha chased?
the eternal state of chill?
maybe.
my dream life is to live simply, as a simple man. that's how i will pursue my happiness
and at the end of the day when i'm old as shit and my bones creak and i might die any second i just want to think - "ah that was fun! i wanna do it all over again"
chillin,
chxshire22