i'm old(er)

30/4/2026

just realised how much time has passed

i know it's a very cliche thing to say that time creeps up on you. but it really, really, really does.

i was at a mehndi night which is apparently a "pre-party" kind of thing that indian people do before their wedding. i'm not indian myself so it was all so new and exciting for me.

i'm one of the groomsmen, so when i was getting to know the other guys, they asked how i got to know the groom.

i said we met during my national service. in 2017. which made me feel kinda crazy cos i swear that 2017 felt like just a few years ago. now it's 9 years ago. almost a whole decade.

what the fuck?

my music taste is... stuck?

i went home after and wanted to relax to some music and was on youtube.

youtube shows when the video was released, right? and that also made me realise that the songs that i considered were "new" are really now already 8 years old.

i've not really found a new song or genre that i really like since probably 2018-2020.

i believe it's called music paralysis.

this article discusses music paralysis and it's quite interesting.

tbh im ok with listening to the same things i enjoyed from when i was a kid/teen/young adult

it's probably why i enjoy the radio

my constant fear

is my life slipping by, and forgetting what i've done.

so i'm gna take many, many pictures. every month, every year has to count for something.

i'm not going to wake up 40 and think again, boy what happened to the last 10 years?

i need to plan and do more things, make more memories, and build/develop more bonds with people.

checklist for the year

so since i need to do things, and i'm turning 30 next year, here are the things i want to do before that happens:

i'll think of more

need to stop sitting in front of my pc

it's all i ever do now.

sit in front of my pc watch nonsense, play games like world of warcraft.

it's hard to detach from that game considering i'm a guild master.

but i can't keep logging in every night, or be on that too much.

there's so much to do out there and so little time.

anyway, here are some of my favourite music i thought were still "new"

i like the whole of the Pacific Daydream album.


enjoy them,
chxshire22
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