i am exhausted, as always
there is never enough time to do all the nothing and all the things i want to do.
there is never enough time for myself to spend time on things i want
in pursuit of saying yes to other people i have betrayed myself.
i am now perpetually tired. exhausted.
and for some reason the exhaustion seems to rot my soul
my spirit is in tatters and my mind is ripping at the seams. i seem to be walking against a current of water everywhere i go.
please let me rest
i know now that with no energy left at the end of the day my mind will crumble, every bad memory, every negative thought rushes to enter my head.
i truly feel like ending my life right here and now.
i feel a kind of anger bubbling up, a forgotten primal emotion for injustices against me i have long forgotten
a kind of anger that is harder and harder to notice is seeping out
i feel a kind of melancholy washing over me. seemingly over nothing.
i feel empty inside.
let me rest.
fuck me,
chxshire22