life sucks recently.
i've almost given up on searching for a job for a software developer role and have decided to focus on surviving.
i'm currently working at this restaurant called Kemuri BBQ at Balestier Plaza, the people are nice the working environment is amazing but it's not really what i want in life, ykwim?
i'm still very grateful for the opportunity for a part time job and i now have the chance to keep my head above water for a little longer, but it can get pretty depressing
but as the title states, i am finding joy in it
every time i go over to report for work, i take the longer route, one that makes me pass by the park and i make sure to leave home an hour before i'm expected at work so i have a sliver of time to sit at the park and relax and watch people walking their dogs, the birds singing, the buttlerflies butterflying, and terrapins in the canal play with each other.
it's so weird that on most days, especially when things are on the up and up and i'm rushing from one place to another i wldn't have noticed the fish in the canal and the terrapins nor the way the sunlight streams through the canopy of the trees
but now, when i've really got not much going for me, it feels like the world is a little more alive because i've got time to appreciate it.
in turn, because of that i feel more alive.
my 10 minutes at the park bench just turning off is probably the most important part of my day now.